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2011年10月19日星期三

ARHHHHH


Is suffering now!
I NEED HELP!
Please God! Give me some energy to squeeze out some ideas to finish up the 2k words essay!
I wanna go ballet and modern class later!
So much pressure now!
WHATTHEFUCKIAMWRITING! Bull-shitting whatever I think about in the essay!
50% of this and I don't wanna fail this subject! It's seriously taking off my breath when I read the topics which given by the uni!


I NEED YOU ANGLES!!!

2011年10月18日星期二

人。心。性

没有人真的能做到无私,
每个人都是自私的,
在不同的时间点,
总能曝露那久违得让自己早已以往的自私,
这是人性。


每个人都活在面具之后,
能说自己没有精神分裂症吗?
其实,几乎全世界有不分的人类,都有着超级轻微的症状,
我们并不知道,存在面具背后的自己,其实有多么地可怕。



存好心,做好事,
也是需要一颗真心,而不是你的虚情假意。

2011年10月7日星期五

A.Letter

I have finally submitted POB Assignment 2 and now working on with MSS Assignment 2.
MSS=MUSIC SOUND STUDIO,
which mean we have learn something theoretical about music, music editing and so on.

I remembered the first lecturer about this subject, I was so surprised that it is something like physics, and it is not an interesting subject as what I have expected before the class.

Although I love to sing very much, but I really can't understand about the theories. The 3 assignments like killing me when I realized that we need to compose our own music by using Garage Band. And the most ridiculous thing is, the lecturer did not teach us about how to function this AWESOME tool.

Due to the requirements of every assignments, we have to use Soundtrack Pro to edit and record our work, and Yes, the lecturer did taught us how to do our assignments by using it. But, I would like to say that, this is your job and we pay you for your job, so WE ARE YOUR BOSS.

Okay, back to the point.

As the lecturer expect everyone of us are the genius in composing music, he never teach us on how to compose, even on how to write out a melody or what. I'm so sorry that I really don't know about music at all. Yes, we have many awesome classmates who really have the skills and passion in those video editing, music editing and even some of them could compose their own music by using different kind of instruments and the tools which provided by Mac Book Pro. I wish I could be like them, at least 10%, but I really can't!

Dear Lecturer,

You might found that there are some good piece of work which did by some pro classmates, but do you really think that everyone is the same? Why can't you put yourself in other people's shoes when you're marking the assignments? I really hate that when you said there are some of them did a good job in their work but some of them are not!

WHATTHEFUCKYOUARETALKING?!!!!!

And when you said that, you're actually failing us!
Firstly, where to get those Pro instruments? or you expect us to use thousand k to buy those high tech thing? Maybe we can borrow from school but how to use? Do you expect us know how to use when we see or touch that thing? or you think we will just GOOGLE it and find out the way in using it? We need to take hours and hours to experiment everything!!!!! And we still have many assignments to do lah!

Please don't compare students between students, because everyone is not the same. When you listen to a super awesome piece, just give him/her a HD! and when you listen to a so so piece, at least give him/her a P2! Because he/she might putting much effort and time when doing the work.

So, Don't do comparison!

And do you know why many students commit suicide nowadays?
Because of the teachers in this 21st century, love to compare this, compare that!
and due to those fucking stupid reason, the students jump down from 12 floor building and died. And the newspaper reported it as student's pressure!

When you keep your fucking mouth shut, you might rescue a student's life.



2011年6月13日星期一

Tired

I don't really want to post anything now, but I'm here just not to let my blog DIE



I'm tired since last semester going to end soon.

Today is the last day and I need to submit my very last assignment on Wednesday.


Everything is fine and good, but I'm mentally and physically sick and tired!


Too many things I need to think and care.



Can I just let it go?



Life is so complicated, but it's still beautiful.....




Because I have them.


Don't know since when, I treat them as my family,
they are so sweet and caring.
I really love to be with them,
so, I'm kinda sad because Her is going to Australia,
and this semester going to end soon, and I have to meet them after 1 month :(












I love them very much because they're always beside me when I really need help :)




Thank you my dear friends!

2010年5月11日星期二

做自己

最近,发生很多很多事情。
身边的姐妹和自己,都有很多说不完的烦恼。
烦恼,是因为我们都很在乎那些人和事。
有些事情,其实不是我们都不说,
只是,要我们如何开口?
别人觉得我们欺骗他们,但是对我们而言,
我们欺骗,是因为我们害怕,不想伤害任何人。
其实,到最后,
我们还是没有欺骗。
选择坦白,真的需要勇气。
当你不知道如何面对那个人的时候,
你的心,其实很难受很难过。
忍住泪水不让它滑落嘴角,
只是不想让对方看到自己舍不得的样子。
最后,还是说不出一句再见。
关上了门,大步走回家,
头也不回。

如果对方可以明白你的心情和感受,
他会祝福你。
如果对方觉得你欺骗他,
那就算了吧。
他是人,你何尝不是人呢?

一个人,不可能顾虑全世界的人的感受。

你永远都是为自己着想,
你永远都是想要憎恨对方,
这样的生活会快乐吗?
有没有想过原因?
为什么不自己想想?
矛头指向别人,是要告诉全世界对方欺骗你伤害你吗?
这不是爱情,所以请不要告诉自己其实你很爱他。


算了吧,他永远只觉得自己是对的。
你顾虑他的感受,他却觉得你欺骗他。
为什么不要为自己而活?
人生存在世界上,本来就应该为了自己而生存。
流言蜚语,让它发生让它去。
既然不能改变,就接受。
也无须介意。

介意,只让自己受罪

对方不体谅你,你也不需要再理会他的感受。



我,
受够你们了!!

尤其是那个只会乱吠的狗母!!!

2010年3月20日星期六

Blank

My mind is blank...








worrying about my assignment!!!





I really don't know what to do....








I'm helpless......





I'm wondering,

is this the life that i want??


NO,
I hate my life now!!!

Even the dancing, i also lost interest in it....







Everyday,every hour,every minute,every second
I keep thinking about the assignment!!!


I can't concentrate when i'm dancing...
I'm sad!!!
I really can't control my feeling!!!



What the fuck!!!
I hate it!!!


I admit it, my English is poor...
I can't understand those vocabulary...
I can't understand what the lecturer was talking about....



I find out the meaning of the vocabulary and i tried to understand the whole article...
Well, i used the whole day just to understand one of the article!!


See, how stupid am I...
I tried to look at everything with an easy way....
I tried to smile in front of the people in college...
In front of my dear friends, i'm trying to hide all the sadness... just trying to tell them, I'M OK!!



This is not I want!!



Well, i'm still trying to improve my super poor English...
Trying my best to do my assignment...
Trying my best to be happy...
Trying my best to find out all the vocabulary.....
Trying my best....... to survive in this world!!!








but, you will no longer to see wan xin, the one who always love to smile and laugh in front of my dear sista!!

2010年1月28日星期四

i'm sick

i'm sick...
totally sick.....
why?
i don't know...
haiz
but i love to sick...
i'm crazy?
i think so....
sick will let me rest more...
but...nop!!
i din rest...still online'ing...
coz i cant sleep.....
dont ask me why??
coz i also dont know the reason....
maybe its become a habit....

so...
all my dear friends....
sleep early....
it is good for you....













i'm still thinking of you..
but no tears...

2010年1月26日星期二

失眠




失眠!



越来越严重!



无奈!



祈求上帝让我有个美梦....



可是,
我还是不能好好的睡觉。










什么时候开始,
我爱上不睡觉?












什么时候开始,
我喜欢一睡不醒?












什么时候,
才可以结束这些颓废的生活?















我越想要改变这些坏习惯,
越不能!









我要睡觉!!!!



















没有读书的日子,
比考试还难熬!











想当初这个时间,
是我准备好要去上学的时候了。














~
好想睡觉。








不是闭眼,
就能入睡。









何必做贱自己?


也许我就是犯贱。









因为我清楚,
为什么我有病=.=















失眠,
不好过。

2010年1月17日 星期日 hate my life



you make my life sucks!!
what the hell?!!!!!!
you make me down!!
i hope to end up my life from tis minute!!
fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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