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2011年10月19日星期三

ARHHHHH


Is suffering now!
I NEED HELP!
Please God! Give me some energy to squeeze out some ideas to finish up the 2k words essay!
I wanna go ballet and modern class later!
So much pressure now!
WHATTHEFUCKIAMWRITING! Bull-shitting whatever I think about in the essay!
50% of this and I don't wanna fail this subject! It's seriously taking off my breath when I read the topics which given by the uni!


I NEED YOU ANGLES!!!

2011年7月13日星期三

Like a F1!

Woke up with a nice mood, but who knows that something horrible is coming soon at night!


Woke up early morning yesterday, and meet up with my bestty, Coey at her house!
We planned to have karaoke session and buy some moisturizer for our lovely skin:)

Firstly, we went to Old Town White Coffee to have our breakfast.
Then, went to Pyramid, search for some moisturizer products.

HADANOMY Collagen mist! Super moisturizer and with collagen! Bought if from SASA, but you can get this from Watson too:)

One set of Hada Labo products. Included cleanser and toner:) The toner is good to use, and it's super moisturizer and protect your skin, especially my face will get very dry after I wash my face! Bought this from Watson!

Eye masks! SASA having promotion now! grabbed these 2 with only RM3++ per one! It will be the first time I try out with a eye masks!


After we have settled about the skin care products, we were at Red Box, enjoying with the songs and the environment!

We were at Room 25

Just 2 hours at Redbox, and it's fucking expensive! Not worth at all!

Then we continued our Karaoke session at Amp Square Karaoke! Did anyone know about this Karaoke place? It's inside Pyramid, the ground floor, a street which probably Arab street ? And you can found that there are some sign board showing the way to Amp Square! Amp Square is much more cheaper, the environment is good, the interior design is like a hotel, the waiters there are all wearing the uniform like a lobby boy! *haha* and you can found some handsome waiters there! Oh! I couldn't found any waitress there!!! See, so much of benefits! I paid only RM10 for around 4 hours!

We were at Room 29


*just ignore the quality of the photos! took these by Ipod touch! I wonder why the quality so bad :(*





omg! don't you think this one look like a barbie doll? *haha*



Around 7pm, we went to Asian Avenue to have our dinner! Was starving like hell!


After dinner, we went to MOD to meet up with Coey's housemate, Susan! She's so cute and friendly :)
Then Coey fetch me back to Klang.



Who knows, after the last toll in Kesas highway, suddenly BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!!!!

I wonder what's going on, I thought we kena langgar by the other car! Then, Susan said it might be tayar pomcak! 

And, Coey said there was something in the middle of the road. We were so afraid, especially me! This was my time and 3 of us are girls, we didn't know what to do! Coey wanted to drive to the third road, which is the slow link, but she couldn't. Because the car was already in the second link and she wanted to go to the fast link before the tayar pomcak! 

All the cars were driving so damn fast, like they wanna go to hell! Then, she decided to drive and stop at the fast link! At the same time, we found that there was another car far behind us kena that thing also! We knew it was dangerous and at that moment, this was the only choice we can choose! Then Susan told us to call my parents and Coey's boyfriend, see what we should do! She helped Coey to check the tyre and trying to ask for help! 2 tyre pomcak and the car was seriously 'injured'! We were fucking scared and panic! We sat inside the car, waiting some kind and helpful people to help us! 

Too many lorries and cars were driving too fast, and some of them hampir langgar us! We could felt the tremor, just like the earthquake is around us! A few times, lorries and cars hampir languor us, can't imagine if they langgar us, how many will die! At that moment, I wanted to cry out loud, but I know I couldn't, it will be more worst and make my friend lagi panic! 

Luckily, two motor stopped by at the third link, one Malay and one Indian. The Indian man is so helpful and kind! He ran to our side, and asked us not to scare, then he brought us to the opposite! Can you imagine that, cars, lorries, motors and buses driving like hell in the highway, and the only thing you can do at the moment, is be bravely, and run like hell to protect and save your life!!! 

Even though we were safely to the opposite, but I was still shivering like I'm dying! I couldn't speak any words! Waiting my parents to come. Finally, my parents came. My dad helped to settle with the problem and, finally I reached home safely! Shivering non-stop, my mum too, over panic and made me more scared! Luckily my dad calm me down :( 

I feel so guilty and sorry to my friends, because if they didn't fetch me back, they won't have this incident!!!

Until now, I still can remember the scene, very clearly! I can feel that, 

I'm still shivering!!


At that moment, I feel that the Died God is with me.
 And I'm ready to die. 
At that moment, I prepare to say goodbye to the world.
 I guess, I will never ever forget about the scene!




Dear God,
I'm glad that I'm alive!
I'm glad that you save me!
I'm glad that I still can see my parents and friends!








Dear Coey,
Thank you for not scolding me or blaming me!
Super appreciate the memories between us!
Hopefully this experience will be the first and last time for you and me!
God bless you!




Life has no take 2! Appreciate what you have now! I will never ever give up my life if I meet problems! 

For those who wanted to commit suicide, don't do it!
You will regret after you're in the hell!



I LOVE LIFE, I ALWAYS DO!



DO YOU?

2011年7月7日星期四

I need you!


It's all about the money money money!
The dinner cost me RM85.50!
OMG! This month can't spend anything!
I need my boyfriend to sponsor everything to me!!!

I NEED YOU SO MUCH, DEAR M-O-N-E-Y!

2011年4月22日星期五

:)

我知道自己的能力
但是
我还是很努力
请你不要拿我和别人比较
有时候付出得比别人多  并不代表你可以得到和他人一样的多
我也希望我可以做到
但是现在不能 并不代表我之后都不能
我知道我没有像他们那么好条件
但是我能走到今天  是靠我的努力
努力得或许不够  但至少我很认真去对待自己的兴趣
我如果真的要放弃 早就放弃了
为什么还要坚持到现在
就算我知道自己很差 不被大家看好
我还是告诉自己没关系
再努力就好
不管是什么艰难的动作 我都努力学努力做努力练
没有天分我又能怎样  谁不希望天生就有那50%的天分?
我就是靠自己的后天补救

你说过,
很多东西 不能就是不能
有时候不是努力就可以成功

是的!你说得对!

你或许不知道
你的一字一句都正在侵蚀我的心
戳破我的自信心
或许你并没有发现
我有多么地自卑
然而
我每天都必须安慰和鼓励自己
因为我觉得它是一件会让我精神让我快乐的


小脚啊,你必须争气点哦!
再转个两三圈就好


加油!陈菀馨:)

2010年5月21日星期五

:(

I'm sorry baby!!
I feel sad when i really hurts you badly:(
I'm sorry baby!!!
I know your heart is so painful, ya!!! i really know:(




I will never leave you
and you too!!!


I'm sorry baby!!!
I cried because i really hurts you badly:(



And



I LOVE YOU

2010年5月1日星期六

The End:(


I think everything gone..

Nothing left..


But I know this is the only way
so, I used it...



I'm sorry..

Thousand of words in my heart and mind..

But I can't face you anymore...

Friendship never end but I think you gonna to end up all this things..


Anywan, appreciate what I have now..and had before..

2010年4月30日星期五

bless me

Will everything be fine if i tell you?

I hope that tomorrow we can have a good ending but not problems..


I hope
I wish


I know maybe tomorrow will be the last time we meet each other
but,
I have to do so...


Sorry....







And






Thank you very much!!!

2010年4月26日星期一

Can you tell me??

Should I tell you the truth?
But why should I care about your feeling?
Because you never care about my feeling..
I tried my best to communicate with you,
but, the conversation always ends up with an icon "appear offline"
*SIGH*

Tell me,
What should I do??


Don't tell me that you love me..
Because you don't know what is love..
If,
you love me,
Please understand what i'm thinking..


You care about your feeling
How you feel is more important..
So, do you think this is love?


Do you know, i'm tired...
You never ask me why..
I'm wondering..
Do you really love me???



Why can't you put yourself in others's place??

2010年3月21日星期日

.........

刚才八点多和菜菜姐在第一站喝茶。
哇~ 幸亏我们早去,要不然真的没有位子坐。
菜菜姐驾他爸爸的名贵车出来,很怕!!!
怕他的车被偷,怕我们被打枪!!
哈哈,总之就是很怕!!
坐下来,就开始讨论我们的功课。
烦!!!!!!
算了,就闲聊。
讲很多很多东西,
功课方面都是我们现在面对的问题。
菜菜姐说,“你变到很憔悴了”
唉,每天都睡不好,当然憔悴。
大学生活就是如此。当然,每个人面对的都不一样。
我无法适应现在的大学生活,
但是我在努力,我尝试。
伤心过了,我还是会打起精神,对自己精神喊话,鼓励自己。
生活还是要过,困难还是要面对,人生也正是如此。
感谢菜菜姐!!哈哈,好姐妹^^



脑袋开始一片空白=.=




人生啊,真的要潮起潮落,才是精彩吗?







这个是我第一次,觉得自己很没用,也很无助。






生活,不管是不是你想要的,还是要过,还是要面对;
即使你不愿去面对,想逃避,
但是当你张开双眼,
还是要告诉自己,
你必须找到生存的方程式,让自己继续存活在世界上。




祝福大家^^
晚安....

2010年3月20日星期六

Blank

My mind is blank...








worrying about my assignment!!!





I really don't know what to do....








I'm helpless......





I'm wondering,

is this the life that i want??


NO,
I hate my life now!!!

Even the dancing, i also lost interest in it....







Everyday,every hour,every minute,every second
I keep thinking about the assignment!!!


I can't concentrate when i'm dancing...
I'm sad!!!
I really can't control my feeling!!!



What the fuck!!!
I hate it!!!


I admit it, my English is poor...
I can't understand those vocabulary...
I can't understand what the lecturer was talking about....



I find out the meaning of the vocabulary and i tried to understand the whole article...
Well, i used the whole day just to understand one of the article!!


See, how stupid am I...
I tried to look at everything with an easy way....
I tried to smile in front of the people in college...
In front of my dear friends, i'm trying to hide all the sadness... just trying to tell them, I'M OK!!



This is not I want!!



Well, i'm still trying to improve my super poor English...
Trying my best to do my assignment...
Trying my best to be happy...
Trying my best to find out all the vocabulary.....
Trying my best....... to survive in this world!!!








but, you will no longer to see wan xin, the one who always love to smile and laugh in front of my dear sista!!

2010年3月7日星期日

失落

失落!




也许,我的语气真的重了些。
因为,我真的真的替你们感到担心。




我没有生气,因为我觉得你们其实是有尽力把最好的展现在舞台上。
但是,我想说,那是不够的。



态度,真的可以决定你们每一次的表现。



说实话,这是我第一次,觉得你们很糟糕。


我越来越替你们感到担心。
担心你们的情绪,
担心你们被教练自责,
担心你们做不来老师也会自责你们。



我原本以为今天我来到,
可以和你们一起开开心心吃东西,
很开心很光荣地坐在台下欣赏你们的演出。



可是,很对不起,
也许你们觉得我很讨厌,
但是我必须说,你们今天都失去以往的水准。



是你们在紧张吗?
我相信不是,因为你们都很有经验了。
而且你们一路来的表现都很好。




我很抱歉,因为我的语气很重,也用了不好的言语来批评你们的表现。
对不起,我真的是无心的。
看到你们这样,我真的很难过。
不不知道要怎么安慰大家,因为我不擅长。



我知道你们大家都很难过,
可是,你们能把这个当成是其中一个教训吗?
吸取经验,把该有的表现都让它展现在下次的演出里。



我知道你们其中有几个背负着很重大的压力,
因为你们是领导人,
所以你们有责任和压力。
我明白,我真的明白。
但是,这会是最好的过程,
它让你从失败中吸取经验再从新站起来。
我相信你们可以的!!
因为一直以来,你们都可以做得很好。



反省,也是我们舞者应该要有的一个态度。
反省每次的缺点,
加以补救。




舞蹈社,
我依然支持你们!!
我希望你们真的可以把舞蹈社越搞越好。
我相信你们可以的!!
加油加油加油!!!

2010年2月9日星期二

~~

是不是天生就爱说谎?
对着爱你的人,也会说谎吗?




相信,
是因为觉得这是值得被相信的。
因为相信,比较幸福。
我一直,是那么认为。



也许在那一秒,
可以说出很多连你自己也无法确定的话。
但是,
我相信。
也不想这些承诺被破灭。




相信轮回吗?
也许,是我欠你的。

我相信上帝的所有安排。
我也认命。
我真的认命。



心里没有恨。
但是,
很痛。





从很早以前,
我学会接受别人看我的眼光,
那些误会我的眼神和话语。
如果是事实,
我接受也承认。
如果不是,
我也原谅,因为不了解我,才会对我有所误会。




我伤心,
因为你不曾尝试了解我。
也许我的爱不够清楚。



你记得你说过的那句话吗?
也许你早就忘记。
你的心里,
永远都没有我的影子。



我希望你真的幸福。
真的希望。



也许哪天我们再见的时候,
只能擦肩而过,
你视而不见,
把我当成是陌生人,
但是,
你依然是我最熟悉的陌生人。



如果讨厌我你会比较快乐,
那就讨厌我吧。
如果讨厌我你会比较自在,
那就讨厌我吧。







我知道你过得很好。
因为我也要你好好的。








不会忘记你唱那首给我听的时候,
我有多感动。






可不可以不要忘记我?









2010年1月28日星期四

about today

今天,和亲爱的哥哥约会去啦!
哈哈^^
第一次和哥哥一起去逛街买衣服。
感觉很奇怪。
不过很幸福!!
哥哥疼妹妹嘛^^
一起买衣服一起选衣服
还抢着和我提战利品!!
爱死我的老哥!!
去金河买衣买了半天吧~
就去哥哥的外宿休息。
他那个懒虫还跑去睡觉!
不过,看在他煮午餐给我吃的份上,
呵呵~原谅他不能让我提早回家。
他睡觉,我看戏~
终于等到他起床,
又跑去附近的shopping mall吃晚餐!
BBQ KITCHEN~
好像是韩国的。
食物还蛮好吃的,
口味很特别哦!
价钱也算便宜。
就这样,
结束了星期四这一天。











我的喉咙!
严重受损!!
变声了!!
很想恐龙!!!
很讨厌!
害我不敢开口说话!!
难听的声音!!












no wishes on my 19th birthday...
coz it would not come true.....
and..
he totally disappear in my life......
i miss him.....
when i'm shopping in sungai wang
all the memories came out.....





When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you


2010年1月26日星期二

2010年1月24日 星期日 i'm.....DOWN



I'm so sorry...








but please forgive me once more time







i'm down!!














and you know what happens to me...














i know somebody is trying to cheer me up

but i still cant





i'm useless!!




i acted happy , nothing happen



but my tears dropped without any control.....









yaya....you are right....
and i know the words and sentences that you told me...
but
give me some time...
i will handle it...





i know i'm not tough enough...
and you said too
i need time to be tough!!








i will let you hit me
my dear friend....







but today...
 please....
don't force me....
let me be wilful and act wildly..
like a child....
just for today..











thank you my dear friend^^
i'm feel lucky and glad to know you...







i will be fine soon^^

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